Monday, October 23, 2006

hallo world! theres this giant breath of fresh air around me. its almost like this giant sigh of relief. haha. not really because the PSI is going down but cus today i got back my results and it turned out exceedingly and abundantly above wad i had imagined.

heres my results:

mathematics - D
chemistry - B
economics - C
general paper - B
literature - E

its like i didnt expect to pass lit at all. i tot i would just pass my GP and for chem, i tot i would get a D and math i tot i would get an E, econs i tot i would get a C which met my expectations but overall, its like wow! i never even expected such grades. i really wanna give God all the glory, cus studying even thou much harder and much more than the last time was still relatively last minute. i never had that confident feeling but He gave me peace thru every paper. and i know i havent been the most faithful in doing my QT and my prayer life but i told God, my education, my council work is my campus ministry to God and i really wanna shine in it, so i really wanna thank God for taking me thru openhouse, for taking me thru promos and giving me positive comments on the council shirt. hallelujah!

but den again, there was also this mood of melacholy around the class the school. and i guess i know the feeling, that feeling of not being good enough, that feeling of leaving everything close and familiar behind. and its like as i sat there and saw people crying, i just couldnt help but think of my primary school days. naive little small boy, but the impact was the same, new enviornment, new frens but nevertheless, i cried cus i didnt make it. i guess the night before, i tot about it, and i messaged my best fren, and i went wad happened if i didnt make it, i guess i can understand to an extent. but u know wad, theres this saying 'it aint over till the fat lady sings', keep hoping! but just always know, life goes on, whether u want it or not, but never let go of a fren and that fren will never let go of u. think of it as a flame, if u make the effort, keep adding wood, not do things to make it suffocate, it will burn on, feel its warmth, dun be sad, make it burn on, as for life, let it move on.

u know, its scary sometimes how power can corrupt and how absolute power can corrupt absolutely. and its scary how a person can get so frustrated, he tries to change the world he lives in, he realises its impossible and it leads him onto a path of no return, a path that turns him into the very thing he detests. from wanting justice to distorting and redefining it. its sad, its scary. i think as people, we have to learn to change wad we cannot accept, and accept wad we cannot change.

just some thoughts today. dinner time. over and out. byee!

|cowpoo| 7:30 PM|

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